Maybe almost every women have been feeling this.
Need an attention from your guys, but don't get it, and feel mad about that.

I've been seeing many friends of mine, who has more needs than me to get attentions from their partners. I've been thinking that I am a quite cool woman, who is not attached to partner's attention, or not hoping too much for sweet things from a partner.
Before, all I need is to express my loving feeling to my partner and makes him happy. Seeing him happy is enough for me. And even though sometimes I expect something from him too, whatever I get, I am happy, and most of the time, I feel enough. I feel content with that.

But I don't know what I am facing now. I've shown my love feeling and caring like usual. No response. Then I let it for a while, and then I express it again. And then no response again. Okay, then gradually I find out, that I don't want to be a woman who is waiting for a response from A MAN or A PARTNER so bad, and having too much thinking about that.

I hate being like that.

I know that he is not hating me or neglecting me. I know he loves me too. Because he told me.
But, this condition makes me want to stop spending my time too much thinking about this, about him.

Girls, Women, you are more valuable than that. (I want to tell this to every woman in this world). You have your gracious, your brain, your smartness, your beauty, your charm, so your time could be used for something more valuable. Because YOU ARE VALUABLE ENOUGH FOR THAT.

If you have a dream of your self, this is the time to think more seriously about that. It shouldn't be affected by your partner's attitudes. People, either man or woman, has their own role, and their own mission, their own dream to achieve. Something that ONLY YOU who can make it, who can realize it.

So, once again, when you need love or attention from your partner, but your partner don't seem to understand that, wait for a while. If they response when your true feeling is still OK, still nice, then it is time for you to enjoy the feel of love between you and your partner. But if they are not coming up yet (up to now), or if they are too late, don't get too long in that worriness. It is a time for you to spread your wings toward the world. The world is big enough that you can fly away wherever your heart tells.

It is a time to be an expert in pleasing yourself. or at least be good in that.
Sometimes, we cannot expect people to please us. We need to learn how to please ourselves, with our own ways.

For those who read this (FOR WOMEN), maybe I sound like a desperate woman. But trust me, soon or later, you will feel this kind of feeling too, at least once in your life time. (or maybe you already had)
Because unless you are lesbian, your partner would never know how woman feels. Well, some man looks like understand, or at least try to (or pretend to?) understand woman because of their experiences with women in his life. But they wouldn't understand it like women do.
Why is that? because they are Men, and we are Women.
Like Woman would never understand THE REAL THINKING of a man, then man would also never understand THE REAL THINKING of a woman.

And for THOSE MAN WHO READ THIS, I am sorry if I sound like harsh to you, but if your partner is doing those kind of things (like I mention above), please LEAVE THEM ALONE. Let them enjoy their life, their WORLD for a while.

If you are the REAL ONE for her, or IF YOU ARE LUCKY, then she surely will come back to you someday, when the time comes. Like nothing was happened.
She just need time, need air, need to FORGET ABOUT YOU for a while. To know what is TRUTH, what is THE TRUE MEANING of herself.
But if you are not the real one for her, well, just forget it.
Umm.. maybe you can show your effort before you let it go. Because women LIKES TO FEEL WANTED, especially from a man that she likes. She doesn't want to be together with somebody who seems not wanting her too much.
Maybe you can try it and we will see what will happen next.
But if it also doesn't work, well, sorry to tell, but maybe you need to find another chance with another woman.

And also, if your girlfriend (or partner) is being nice to you most of the time.
DON'T TAKE IT FOR GRANTED. Because we wouldn't know when woman's volcano will explode. (even herself also doesn't know when. that is the mystery of a woman)

a flower wouldn't grow if you don't water it. Also, a love can only grow if you take care of it sometimes. It doesn't have to be watering ALL THE TIME, but you need to recognize your flower, how many times a day, or a week, or a month, you need to water it.

thank you for reading till the end.

Thank you BLOG!
I feel better now.

I am ready to spread my wings to my world!

and good luck for all of you too!


Dinamysa